I am a planner by nature. I like order and I like having control of my circumstances. Having a rough idea of what my next month is going to look like weeks (sometimes months) in advance is absolutely vital to my sanity, and truthfully as an adult I have found that things run much smoother when I take the time to map out a plan. Personal daily, weekly, and life goals and to-do lists are a must, and I take great care and attention in developing mine.
One thing that I have come to realize as of late, however, is how much worrying and fussing I do because of my need for control. I say that I trust God yet the second His plan does not align with my plan, I begin to think, “Are you sure you know where we’re going? How long will it take? Are we there yet?! Matter of fact, I’ll take it from here. Thanks!” A favorite pastor of mine, Pastor Michael Todd of Transformation Church, recently delivered a message on this subject that read my entire life (WATCH IT HERE).
But this morning, as my mind raced with a million and one thoughts, I reached over to my nightstand for my planner and the first thing I saw was this:
My prayer journal with the most comforting and timely reminder I’ve had in weeks.
Such seemingly simple words, but it hit me like a fierce gust of wind. “Be still“. Psalm 46:10 immediately came to my recollection: “Be still, and know that I am God…” and in that moment, all I could do was thank Him, and praise Him for being just that. Through all of my shortcomings, my inadequacies, my doubts, my failures, He has remained faithful. So yes, I will continue to plan and maintain order in my life, but I am making a more conscious choice to submit my plans to Him first; to seek insight and guidance regarding His plans for me; to relinquish complete control; to take my feet off the pedals and let Jesus take the wheel.